Why do I feel sad about the ending of 3rd Japan tour? I won’t even attend those show anyway, it’s too good to be true. hiks.
Really, why do I feel sad? maybe because there’s no funny or touching fan account again, there’s no more fan acc about my OTP again. But, isn’t it good? I don’t have to feel butthurt again, or even worse envy those who attend the show.
Buuut, that also means no exploding-airport fashion photos anymore :( I really like airport photos. So sad.
I’m sure GG will still invading airport every once in a while though… They are so highly on demand for God’s sake :)
And…look at the bright side, in the end of the arena tour, Japanese tv usually broadcast cuts from GG’s tour. Hopefully this year too :)) so finally I will see the performances in HD. Isn’t it a yay?
Anyway, I’m looking forward to more and more OT9 activity, as a group or as a solo. And the world tour? yeah! (if it comes to Indonesia again, which is so plausible, then I should save money again. ugh wish me luck. Because…if jessica comes to my country and I can’t come to see her, it will be a ‘so butthurt and heartbreaking’ situation :| )
Oh will she be the next toy for Dispatch or Sportseoul? Oh not toy, more like money machine for them. Isn’t it shame? get money by ruining someone’s life, privacy, fans-idol relationship :|
Anywaaaayy… I’m totally aware that Jessica Jung, my ultimate bias, lol, probably is dating someone. I’m totally okay with it. Really. Right?
Because when I start being her fan, I love to see her with any man, she has that ability in making every couple that include her, cute. So yeah, even she’s interacting with Jung Hyungdon, or Gary. I found it cute.
So if she’s confirmed to be dating someone, I think I’ll be alright, happy even.
Couldn’t trust my self tho… haha according my experiences in accepting another member’s dating news, I felt a little bit, something like…’what the hell?’ LOL
But it was only because I don’t really like the guys. Ahahaha cliche I know. But having SNSD as your idol is pretty hard, as in you find them so perfect and wow, and queens, and godesses. So you will have that high standard of your own for them. Haha.
So yeah, what if Jessica’s dating? of course I’d love it if the guy is someone really cool, tall, handsome, well dressed, smart, charming, and rich. It’s pretty normal if I want the best for the one I adore right?
I hope it would be Lee Dong Wook. Zero chance? No, they know each other pretty well, they are close because of that Wild Romance drama.
Ok Taecyeon would be ok. But she said they are just close friends. But why not? best friends turn lovers is pretty normal :))
Tyler Kwon? Okaayy…I know most Jessica’s stans despise him. lol. because he’s not that hot and charming. but he’s just okay for me. seems like a good guy with good amount of money :) And he’s the one that assured jess to make weibo, sort of, shouldn’t we thank him? I did…and I follow him on weibo and wished him happy birthday, I guess I’m fine with him being jessi’s man.
Then some rumor spreads that jessica’s gay, she’s into girls, it obvious from the way she treats girls and her gesture and so on. LOL.
Well, actually, why not? it’s pretty cool for me.
So yeah… I’m more than ready to know who is he, or she, whatever please go public! hahaha
I hope the revelation wouldn’t be dramatic though. I’m sick of drama :((
I know probably no one care about my thought but here it is…
Yeah I’m not literally happy about baekyeon. Because… oh my God a younger boy? Taeyeon? really?
I mean, yeah, we all know Taeyeon is an awesome woman with beauty, talent, good personality, rich, and all. She’s cool. Everyone would love to be with her. Ok not everyone, maybe most people in the world :D
But… she chooses Baekhyun? her little cute fanboy? So yeah, I’m shocked. And I’m not gonna lie, I’m disappointed. But deep down in my heart, I know Taeyeon has her reason to choose the guy. He’s cute? he’s soft? Whatever. Taeyeon knows him better than all of us, fans, knows him. And she’s an adult too, a grown up woman, she knows what to do with her life. So I know I should stop judge her taste or her life decision like I own her. (Oh, that means I should stop judging nichkhun too though. Lol. Sorry can’t help he’s just… Ok I will try. If only he tries to be more discreet, maybe =] )
So, Baekyeon is not something I expected. Plus, because of being in the middle of fandom for such a long time, I start to see Taeyeon the way most fans (is it most?) see her. Taeyeon is an oppa. She’s into girl. Oh come on, look at her…. she’s handsome and looks like she knows how to treat her women. Oh okay, I’m judging her again. She’s probably just being playful. I mean, look at Sunny, she loves to bite and touch her members’ body but no one-at least not many of fans think she’s gay.You know my problem here? It’s hard for me to see Taeyeon dating a guy, especially a younger guy that prettier than her. Right?
But what’s done is done. Taeyeon seems like Baekhyun too. She looks so comfortable with him. So we should be happy too, for her. Look at the bright side, Taeyeon not so emo and hobo in the airport these days. Right? Probably because she’s happy. Isn’t it a good change? We all know that around last year, Taeyeon was starting become, what word to describe? uhm…un cheerful? lol yeah she’s no longer the happy dorky little girl again. If you are a fan you should notice.
Remember when she was on You Hee-yeol’s Sketchbook during IGAB era? She said she felt lonely when she got home after work :( wasn’t that sad to hear that? Then, Taeyeon become more emo and emo and quiet and quiet on talk show. That’s so sad. She obviously lonely. She needs it, somebody sweet to talk to, somebody to love, somebody that will love her as much. She needs romance in her life, like normal people do. Face it. We have no chance to fill in that emptiness in her heart even if we claim that we love Taeyeon very very much. Even we’re with her on Instagram comment section, even we’re with her holding pink lighstick during concerts. When she’s alone. She will still probably be lonely.
Even we spend our time, energy, money for them, for our beloved idol, we don’t own them. WE DON”T OWN THEM. Let this whole fandom life not own you too guys, get a life. I know sometimes I should say that to myself too. GET A LIFE. World is a beautiful place. We have precious people around us too :)
And in the middle of this mess, I’m starting to think if Kpop is not in this kind of ‘concept’ from the start. No body will get hurt like now. This mess wouldn’t happen.
What I mean by concept is, something like … idol is single and just belong to fans. Uhm I don’t know how to write a proper explanation, but yeah something like that. If only Kpop idol is just like another idol in the Hollywood, Europe, another part of Asia or wherever, it will be so normal if they’re dating. I mean, look at Taylor Swift, I don’t try to offense her or her fans, but she has a list of ex boyfriends yet we still love her as much because from the start it’s all about her music, her talent, her self. Because the concept on American music industry is anywhere near kpop. Something like celebrity belong to fans and fans only. Their celebrity has a life from the start. If only that kind of concept could be work in Korea too it would be different.
It would be different like, we will know how many ex boyfriends Jessica Jung has. LOL. Because it’s obvious she get along well with people, with boys? right? ok, and girls too hahaha.
If only we could let it go. Let the possessiveness go. We will be happier. Because I think the best thing about Kpop is how entertaining it is. Why we let the drama comes in?
Yeah, that is the way I’m thinking about the situation :) and I’m sorry English is not my first language :))
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